Life is swimming in the deep. Dare

It's a little chilly tonight.

  • The sea licks my bare toes. It's dark and it scares me. They are mysteries and fascinate me. I close my eyes and feel her caressing me.
  • It invites me to explore it, to go deep inside it.
  • I feel like it wants to suck me in, suffocate me.
  • In her kisses or in her unsinkable dark waters, I'm not sure. I only hear the call. I feel it, I smell it with lifeguard training near me


Or maybe I'm just smelling my fear

The fear of the unknown, the unknown, the foreign, the step I have to take.

Lies... the step I want to take and I don't dare.

Coward even now.

There comes a time when swimming in the deep is the only way. The depths are always calling you. The question is when you will feel that it is time to leave the shallows


It's my moment, I can't be wrong.

That thin dividing line that once crossed, there is no turning back. Swim or die drowning in boredom. You are tried or sentenced to death for recklessness. But life takes courage.

To live with your whole alert Being takes courage.

Facing your mistakes and passions head on takes courage.


Experiencing your moments intensely takes courage.

Only the certainty of stasis does not require boldness.

The obsession with not leaving your shell, not moving away from your protected area, certain that immobility and inaction will drag you forward, all the "shoulds" and "don'ts", do not require courage.

You condemn yourself to splashing in stagnant water. Get your feet wet to get real life nuggets. Then you go back to your land, your security, your angel and demon.

The belay tends to pull you sometimes to help you balance on a tightrope and other times to prevent you from going forward without it.

It always comes with the price of not encouraging you to take risks.

But life takes risks with lifeguard course near me




Asking for more, at the risk of losing some things and feelings from what you have acquired up to that moment, requires risk. Not wandering aimlessly and chasing your dreams takes risk.


  • Only selfishness does not require risk.
  • As long as you stick to your ego, you don't have to worry about failures. You have already failed because you refuse to see beyond yourself…
  • The sea is raging. My breath is heavy. The past suddenly recedes, blurs, swirls. I see it behind me dancing. To entice me to turn back or just to entice me to find my rhythm and continue, I really don't know.

Lies… inside I know.


My past loves me, as I love it. He wants to help me. He beckons me with confidence that no matter what, he'll be there, a guard in the background, watching my back, as long as I step forward and dance the dance of my life.

 

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